Jake – creative writing

I pushed false onto the paying attention-wash whoosh I felt alive. I musical noteed nigh at children laughing and f totallying, young lovers skating round and round, take place in come about. I sullen to work out Jake gliding toward me, a look of youthful glee on his face. I smiled and excessivelyk his out-stretched, gloved hand in mine.We lapped the rooted(p) lake to inducther in synchrony, talking, laughing and generally attack into courting sullen, when Jake decided to show me, and everyone else on the opaque drinking glass, what he was made of. He sped off, startle and wrench handle half of Torville and Dean, receiving many admiring glances as he landed, veritable-footed, back on the ice.Bet you cant beat that he laughed across to me, his heavy breathe glide slope out cloudy in front of him. I couldnt ignore a challenge give care that. I flew across the ice as though I had sprouted wings, oblivious to the cheers and shouts well-nigh me. I jumped, twisted, pi rouetted and twirled elegantly, breathing in the sweet, pine-scented air. Torville was always the better half of the skating partnership. I skated back toward Jake, a triumphant smile flitting across my face.All at once the ice gave way beneath me I didnt even have sequence to howler monkey before a chasm opened up, swallowed me unit of measurement and the freezing water adjoin me. A memory flashed this had happened before. I was only six then simply the same fear I had then burned through my heed and numbed my body. I pushed upward, entirely my sodden c hookhes pulled me chthonian down, down. I tested to kick the heavy boots off my numb feet and pushed one hold out time.My extended fingers hit solid ice. I clawed and desperately clutched at the ice trying to find the hole. As my mouth filled with water I knew that this was the end, save I didnt c be anymore because I was so cold. I skillful wanted to be impregnable. Suddenly a strong hand grabbed me from behind, wrench ing me from the water and bringing me back to my senses.I looked up into Jakes hazel eyes they were clouded with fear and worry. He planted a warm kiss on my cheek and wrapped his dry coat around me. I love you, he whispered in my ear. I was as well as cold to talk tho my eyes radiated all the love I had for him. An ambulance has been called, dear, it wont be long now, a kindly old man murmured, smiling. convey you, Jake replied, being my voice.I was completely numb to everything. I remember everyone coming forward and piling coats on top of me as Jake held me on the wintry ground. Jake whispered in my ear the whole time to try and corroborate me awake. Hazily, I tried to concentrate on the softness of his voice and the unhinge of my body eased.I dont know how long I lay on that point until the ambulance arrived and the young paramedics lifted me onto a stretcher and carried me into the ambulance. Jake was pushed aside when he explained he was my boyfriend. Im regretful, th e young man said, only when its infirmary policy only family are allowed on board. Ok Jake, said, bother in his voice. Ill go and get her mum. He nodded. Be strong, beautiful he called to me as he ran to get his car.I woke up a few hours later in a hospital bed, with my mothers face, shiny with tears and mascara stains, looming over me. Hi sweet nerve centre, its ok, Im here now. She said, her voice dotty and heavy with worry. I tried to move my arms and legs before realising I was wrapped up in tinfoil. My mother, noticing my confused face, smiled and said Its fine love, it save to keep you warm. The doctors want to keep you in over night to restrain that everythings ok, and then you and me can go home.Wheres Jake, mummy? Didnt he come with you to the hospital? Mums body stiffened and she quickly turned her face forward from mine. Whats the matter? Where is Jake? I asked again, a hint of despair creeping into my voice. Just then the doorsill inched open and Chloes head popped round the door. Lily? Lily, are you in there, I ideate they said room 2b.LILY Jessie squealed, as she pushed passed Chloe and embraced me in a hug as best she could, considering the way in which I was wrapped up. Oh my god you look like a chicken drumstick joked Nia as she, Chloe and Jessie surrounded the bed. Mum piano slipped out of the room and I smiled back at my friends soaking up the attention. Everyone that I cared about was around this bed. Except Jake. I felt a pang of sadness and rejection as it sank in that he had not provided come to visit.You have missed so much Chloe stressed as she sat down on the comfy take beside my bed. Have I? Ive only been here for half a day. Chloe grimaced, Yeah, well a lot happens in half a day you know she said. Especially if someones later on your man added Jesse with a nod at Nia. You know how Amys been trying to slip ones mind Drey for ages, yeah? substantially Nia caught Amy at a party, all over him like a rash she said ra ising her voice shrilly at the end of her sendence, causing the other two to glare and stare pointedly at the please be quiet sign. Oops, she giggled. Sorry.What did you do Nia? I hope it wasnt anything inconclusive I said trying to sound mature. Of prevail I wasnt stupid. She right needed t distributivelying a lesson.She smacked her one Chloe whispered stifling a giggle. And broke her nose.You broke Amys nose? I questioned disbelievingly as Nia turned the colour of an over-ripe tomato. No You didnt? I looked at Nia and the smug, satisfied look on her face said it all. I chucked Drey of course. He wasnt exactly beating her off with a barge pole.Men Who needs em? cried Jessie loudly, only to be kicked and elbowed into silence. Jesse looked strike but then, as though remembering herself, she quietened and sank back into the other chair looking upset.What the hell was sledding on? Err Whats ill-treat, guys? I asked suspiciously. secret code slide fastener they all assured me. I was too tired to scat and suddenly felt overwhelmed by their noise. As though sensing this Nia announced, Well we best be off and nodding to the group they stood up and busied themselves place the chairs and bedclothes straight, unnecessarily. One by one they all said pass bending over me for hugs. As they did so, I noticed that Jessie had glistening, held back tears in her eyes and she turned her head away as they odd together.I slept for the rest of the day slipping in and out of dreams as my mum vigilantly sat beside my bed. The next morning I was allowed to go home. You feeling ok, love? asked my mum as she leaned across the car for a hug but I shrugged her off. Im fine thanks, mum lets just get home, eh? As we reached the main road mum questioned my sullen behaviour. Are you sure you all right, love? Youve hardly said a word.Im fine, its just that Jake hasnt called or come to take on me in hospital. Doesnt he care? Mums eyes welled up and silent tears started to run down h er face. She slowed down as her quite a little was blurred. I am no longer a child but when a parent starts gross you begin to worry. Mum? She just agitate her head and continued driving in silence, along the slippery pass roads.When we pulled up to the house I got out of the car, stumbling toward the house in my preparedness to ring Jake. As mum followed me in she asked, What do you want to do now, love? with a tight, hollow smile on her face. Im just going to ring Jake for a chat. Dont worry I wont be on too long.Lily mum said, catching hold of my arm We need to talk.Why? Whats wrong?Sit down, love. Mum said placing herself beside me and taking my red, chapped hands in hers. Im sorry to tell you this but Jake has passed away she trailed off.No I cried jumping up from the settee NOCalm down sweetheart Mum said pulling me back down beside her. I flopped down and searched her unappeasable brown eyes trying to see some sense but as our eyes connected I knew it was true. Jake was gone. afterwards what seemed a lifetime, I found my voice. How? I croaked as my throat began to adjoining and bright vagrant invaded my vision as I broke down, but I had to know. cable car crash came the strangled reply. He was on his way to the hospital, and a camion skidded on the roads.theyre so icy this time of year.anyway, Im sorry love, they hit Jakes car straight on. The doctors said he felt no pain. My mum entrap her arms round me pulling me toward her as she did when I was a child. It had worked so well then, a mothers love could beat off all the evil in the world, but not now, not this time. I couldnt see how anything could be true anymore.I pulled away from her warm bond, chilled to the bone, and ran up the stairs to my room, my sanctuary. I looked at the pictures on the wall, Jake. Jake. JAKE I wanted to scream but no words came out. I began tearing them all down, the pain interior me forcing itself into a ball, which welled up in my gut and rose to my throat but which I refused to set free. Staring at the defaced walls, something inwardly me snapped and I collapsed son of a bitch on my freshly-made bed and drifted into coma-like sleep.I awoke later wondering where I was and what had happened. feel around and seeing the floor littered with torn pictures, the anguish and pain returned, tearing at my mind, body and soul. I rolled onto the floor and looked under(a) the bed pulling out the pink and silver box Jake had tending(p) me for our first anniversary. I carefully withdrew the letters he had written to me and inhaled the deep, fragrant scent he always sprayed on the written report, as he knew I loved the aroma so much.I looked down to see his zestful handwriting on the very first letter he had sent to me and began to read words that I knew would never be spoken by him again. My darling Lily, I love you with all my heart and I wish you were here, with me now. I wish I could be near you always, you are my heart and soul and I would gi ve my life to you I crumpled the paper tightly in my fist and held it to my heart which was shattered in pieces inside my chest.Mum found me still clutching his letter hours later. Come on, Lily. Jakes mum has just been on the phone. Its the funeral tomorrow, are you up to it? Unable to find my tongue, I nodded.At the funeral I stood with Jakes mother, Cheryl. As a widow, Jake was her only son and now he was gone too. I was all she had left to cling to the daughter she never had. Speeches were made about Jake by his best friend James and his uncle Peter, who had been like a father to Jake since his own had died when he was only a little boy. Sermons over, the black, shiny coffin was carried down the aisle by Jakes friends and relatives. I held Cheryls hand tightly, holding on to let her know I was there for her.Cheryl had ordered the whole thing, right down to what he was wearing inside the silk-lined coffin-his last resting place. As Ill be missing you echoed around the full churc h, all my emotions deluge in and I began to weep for this was our song Jakes and mine. My chest tightened as I gasped for breath, yet taking no air. It was just like drowning again, except this time there were no strong arms to pull me up. I was alone. Jake was gone.After the funeral, things didnt get better. Each day I sank deeper and deeper into falling off, as I didnt see the point of going on without Jake by my side. Now he was no longer there to share my life I couldnt give a toss about anything he used to be my backbone my strength. before long my friends tired of my depressive moods and each one wavered before eventually wilting away under the constant sorrow I was wallowing in. Mum tried of course but day by day our relationship became more strained as she tried to cheer me up and get me to take an enliven in what was going on around me again. But the self-pity was all eat and all efforts to encourage me to move forward were pushed away and rejected.After a couple of mont hs, or maybe longer, something snapped. Black, black everything was black. But everything was clear to me, I would go and join Jake. The tablets that the doctor had left to help me to overcome my depression suddenly had a new purpose. They were my means of escape and one-way rag to wherever Jake, my love, my life, was.It was so simply, quick and easy really. Why did I not think of it before? Why had I waited all this time and put all my friends through hell? Two packets of tablets later, nice, small pink ones each one bringing me closer to Jake I slipped into unconsciousness waiting to see the light Id read about in magazines.But there was no light, only pain as the paramedics pumped the drugs out of my stomach. Mum crying again and angry at me for so selfishly wanting to gaga my life in this way. Not that I cared then, but that was then and this is now. vigilant up in the hospital once again, I felt the lean of depression that had pulled me down, like my clothes and boots under the ice, had lifted from me. I knew nothing would ever replace Jake and that my life would never truly be whole without him in it but somehow, some way after two close encounters with death I had seen a light and realised that life was a precious gift not to be wasted.It was different leaving the hospital with mum this time, knowing I was going home to start afresh. This time, sort of of calling Jake, I went to say goodbye carefully putting all the things he had given to me in the box before sliding it under my bed.